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Sunday, January 31, 2010,10:55 PM
i am gettin on well now..
i think u are too..
i still miss u at times.. wonder what u are doin..
i'll just take this period of time as a test for us..
till we're both too tired and decided it's time to let go..
but i am not pinnin any hopes le..
i just don't want to regret in the future for not givin u the time u asked for and wonder how the endin would have changed if i just waited alittle longer..
maybe u are really not the one afterall..
Saturday, January 30, 2010,2:29 PM
once again my mum asked why she had not seen ricky recently..
& she asked if we had a quarrel..
i had to find excuses for them like again..
its not that i do not wanna let my mum know.. but i just do not wan her to be worried..
& most importantly i do not wan her to think of ricky in a bad way.. coz i can't tell her a reason why he wanna reconsider the relationship..
afterall she knew of our plans to get married etc..
but i know 'zhi3 shi4 bao1 bu2 zhu4 huo3 de4'..
theres no point in findin excuses for him..
i guess when the day i finally decided to let my mum know about the breakup.. it will be the day i choose to move on already..
& i promise myself.. i won't look back anymore..
Monday, January 18, 2010,10:52 PM
now i realise why i always ate alittle too much..
because i m always in a good mood..
,10:14 PM
when i wanted to go.. ur actions showed otherwise..
i asked u.. u said u wanted me around..
sometimes u did things which really made me feel this way..
then i made up my mind to wait..
after which i realise u also did things which showed otherwise..
i already don't know what u want..
i wonder if i should just go..
because i have already lost my right to question u..
Saturday, January 16, 2010,6:44 PM
8 days seoul san fransicso..
i used to change flights >6days away coz i wanna be in singapore with him..
i used to do this flight because i wanna get him his A|X and A&F tees..
now i no longer see a reason to change away this flight.. nor do i see a reason to do this flight..
suddenly i don't know what to do with it at all..
,3:39 PM
i can't believe the person who sent me a e-card less than a mth ago to tell him that he misses me and that he's sorry for his temper recently.. e same person who told me that i'm his "wei yi" dumped me just like that..
everyone told me to change.. everyone told me they're sure he still loves me alot..
but everyone's wrong..
because the person he wanted..
is no longer me..
Friday, January 15, 2010,7:37 PM
i begin to think what she said is right..
maybe i'll listen to her so called advice afterall..
it's sad because we once shared so many dreams & have endless of topic to talk about..
but now i have to think of what to say to him which doesn't seem like i'm tryin to pick a quarrel..
~*~**~*~**~*~**~*~**~*~
i'll cry my river now..
one day i will start to build my bridge..
& finally start walkin the first step..
before i knew it, i've gotten over it..
=)
Thursday, January 14, 2010,5:20 PM
sorry sunnies..
all ur analysis are completely utterly wrong..
i have told u all..
,9:36 AM
because i believe in for better or for worst, i will stand by u..
for 3 nights i cried, thinkin it's my fault..
maybe she is right..
u have already left, standin there alone is just me..
the girl who is blessed with a bunch of great friends.. =)